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23 April 2009

Kecewa atau Sedih?? (~,~)

Kecewakah aku?
Patutkah aku rasa kecewa?
Arrghhhh..aku pun tak tau nak bagitau apa yang aku rasa...
Rasa kecewa, rasa sedih dan geram pun ada...

Namun apakan daya,
terpaksa jugak la aku balik ke kolej sorang-sorang nanti.
Siang plak tue. Sah-sah la ku tido awal bila sampai nanti sebab kepeningan...

30 hb nie aku akan balik ke kolej semula.
Ada lg 3 hari cuti sebelum sem baru bermula...
Itu pun dah banyak ayah dengan ummiku membebel sebab balik awal...
Kalaulah mereka tahu aku balik sorang-sorang, lagi-lagi la mereka akan bising.
Maafkan Kak Ngah ayah, ummi...
Bukan tak nak bagitau, tapi tak nak ayah dan ummi risau...
InsyaAllah Kak Ngah akan jaga diri baik-baik...

Kalau tahu awal kawanku itu nak balik dengan abangnya,
tentu aku beli tiket bas malam 1/2 mei.
Tapi...nak buat macam mana...
Dia dah pun berada di Kuala Lumpur sekarang.
Alhamdulillah, dia dan abangnya selamat sampai.
Harap perjalanan pulangku ke kolej nanti akan selamat juga...

Owh, Liyana...
Stop feeling that way...
Everything happen for a good reason...
Believe in yourself and Allah's will.
He will protect you when no others can...
Doalah padaNya dan mengadulah padaNya...
\('_')/\(~,~)/\(^_^)/

21 April 2009

1st Year of Clinical Years

Don't know how to start writing...
There are so many thing i wanna share n write.
I wanna write about the 1st yr of clinical year, the elective posting, my holiday and my family....


-------1st Year of Clinical Years-------

I started my clinical year with Medical Posting. It is not easy but not too difficult. Just that, there are so many things to read. But I enjoy going to ward as I already been thought on how to examine medical patient...how to examine respiratory, cardiovascular, abdominal and nervous system. It also because there are seniors that being posting there at the same time. I learned a lot from the seniors. Neither boys or girls, Malay, Chinese, Indian or Sabahan, they are all very nice and helpful. They enjoy to share their knowledge. I learned how to examine rheumatoid problem and diabetic foot ulcer from them. They also show me how to read the CT scan of thorax but I didn't manage to catch it up very well. Anyway, Medical Posting is very enjoyable to me. And about the theory part, I admitted that I cannot finished it if I'm studying alone. So, thanks to my study group members...Aina, Izzati Rani and Zalikha..that help me a lot with the theory part. It's really help me. I even didn't need to read that much during the study week. I just answered a few questions during the study week.

JKM or Medicine and Society Posting was my 2nd posting. For that, we're staying at Tanjung Karang. It also was an enjoyable posting but the enjoyable part more towards the activities we had there. The relationship between each members in a group sgt rapat. We always enjoying our time there. We went to eat 'ikan bakar', KFC and durians. It was really memorable time. Owh, how enjoying is life having friends around. Not to forget the sporting drivers that always ready to drive us to our destination. Now, about the lectures...ermmm, how to say...should i say it's quite boring? Indeed, certain lectures are boring. I knew there were valuable knowledge but...I rather choose practical parts. Going for fogging, aedes survey, water sampling and know more about the health care system involving various department in a hospital. Not only between the members of the group, the relationship between the members of our group posting also tighten there. We really had fun and enjoy our posting there.

3rd posting...the Obstetric and Gynaecology Posting. About this posting...i must say that this was the most tiring posting. Tired to wait for patient going labour and the most frustrated was tired for waiting for patient to enter the labour room. However, it was really wonderful and exciting to conduct the labour...holding the newborn baby. Oh, how I wish I have a kid too. But I do not wanna to deliver...afraid to as seeing how hard and painful to deliver a child. I still remebered the 1st time I watched the delivery process. The tears are not shame to falling down the cheek. At that time, the thought about my mom wandered my head...how she had bare the pain to delivered us? how was when I'm delivered? It's difficult? did I become good girl to her after all she had done to me? Owh, how I missed my mom at that time. I'm really appreciate all the things she had done..but what have I did for her? It's enough just to be a good girl to her? This posting makes me loving my mom more and more. This posting also new to me. The abdominal examination for pregnant women is different from abdominal examination in medical and for gynaecology case, there are a few steps added to the abdominal examination which also included the pelvic and bimanual examination. This posting is the posting where many of us being scolded by the lecturer and not forget the midwives. But, it's nothing to me even it's hurt...it just temporary. They just wanted us to be more careful in order to be a better doctor.

My last posting is Surgery Posting. Many said that this posting is the most relax posting and easy posting. The diseases that need to be cover not as much as medical and some are overlap with the medical problems. However, I'm still need to have study group. I do not want to be like the O&G posting...lost. My study group during Medical Posting had separated. Luckily, there's a group that allowed me to join them. I really did not do much physical examination during this posting. I even did not excel in inguinal hernia examination even it was the most commonest surgical problems. Besides that, thyroid, breast, vascular and ulcer examination is also important and common in surgical wards. For surgery posting, the best place to learn is during clinic hours with different speciality everyday. All surgeon are nice and ready to teach us anything they knew. Just approch them if you want to know something. But, I seldom approch them...hehe.


-------Elective Posting-------

My elective posting was at Pusat Pemulihan Dalam Komuniti (PDK) Seri Malindo, Masjid Tanah, Melaka. Ilani, Ely and Azila are my group members but Ely unable to attend it as she need to repeat posting. Azila and I staying at Ilani house at Sempang Ampat during the posting. It was my 1st time I went to a PDK and 1st time I knew about what the place is all about. There, I get to know people that having Down's Syndrome, Autism, Learning Difficulties and also Cerebral Palsy. I'm really gratefull to be born healthy and lead a normal life. At the PDK, I learned to be patient...especially when taught them. Half of them are above 15 years old. But, their thinking are just like primary school student. At the PDK, the learned how to do housework such as sweeping the floor and cleaning the table after eating. They also learned how to used toilet and how to dress all by themself. Works that look very very simple for us are hard for them to do. They learned alphabets, numbers and colours like kindergarten kids. They hardly remember it. So, the teachers there really need to be patient to teach them. everyday. For kids with cerebral palsy...they will have physiotherapy. They were in pain when doing the physiotherapy. Some cried and mostly restlessness after finished the physiotherapy. It really sympathy to look at them...really thin muscle bulk and the bones are really obvious to the eye. I'm afraid to hold them because I'm afraid to broke their bone and causing them in pain. How I wish to have normal child. However, I'm really impressed with the mother there. They really care for their child and involve with their activities. Sometimes the mothers cooked for their lunch. Owh, betapa besarnya jasa ibu2 tersebut. "Syurga di bawah tapak kaki ibu"

I think...it is enough for this time. I'm tired already. I wanna ZzzzZzzzzZZzzzzzz....