Bukan Rezekiku

Owh...sedih2....

Siang td aku beli 1 cincin ni yg sgt simple tp menarik hatiku...

Walaupun agak longgar, aku beli jugak sbb hati dh berkenan...

Tp, dh bukn rezeki n jodohku dgn cincin tu...

Bila smpai bilik bru aku perasan ia dh xde d jari...

Sedih333...bukn senang aku nk berkenan kt cincin...alih2, xde dh skrg...

xpe la...mungkin blom masanya aku pkai cincin...haha

pdhal cincin kt rumah xpkai2...tp nasib baik bukn cincin ummi/tok bagi yg hilang...

klu x, mmg xtau la apa nk jwb....

Haa..ni la cincin tue...sweet x? Kini hanya tinggal kenangan...ohhh ohhhh ><

His Convo

Tahniah Latif!!!

Am happy for you...

Thanks for inviting me to join ur big day...

Klu x invite pun nak jugak join...haha

Thanks to ur cousins yg amik kta kt cni utk pg S.A.

Thanks to ur bro for the dinner after a half day of hunger...hehe

So happy to be around u and ur family...

Happening & lively...tp kekadang xpaham...hehe

Hope we'll we meet again next yr ^_^

A part of his family members that came that day

Love EMed...

Emed nmpk cm busy....hr2 oncall...

tp aku suke giler...oncall kejap2 je kowt...

rs xpuas pun...sbb blh buat semua benda...

xdela duk tunggu patient sbb mmg patient bnyk...

cuma hjung minggu pg2 mmg xrmai sgt la...

bak kta doktor, org kl blom bangun...huhu

2minggu berlalu dgn cepat je...

rs xckup 2minggu...

bla lalu depan A&E, terasa nk jenguk....

waaa, rindu Emed...

Rindu kat Ummiku Sayang

A song for you Ummi...

You taught me everything

And everything you’ve given me

I always keep it inside

You’re the driving force in my life, yeah

There isn’t anything

Or anyone I can be

And it just wouldn’t feel right

If I didn’t have you by my side

You were there for me to love and care for me

When skies were grey

Whenever I was down

You were always there to comfort me

And no one else can be what you have been to me

You’ll always be you always will be the girl

In my life for all times

Mama, mama you know I love you

Oh you know I love you

Mama, mama you’re the queen of my heart

Your love is like

Tears from the stars

Mama, I just want you to know

Lovin’ you is like food to my soul

Yes it is

You’re always down for me

Have always been around for me even when I was bad

You showed me right from my wrong

Yes you did

And you took up for me

When everyone was downin’ me

You always did understand

You gave me strength to go on

There was so many times

Looking back when I was so afraid

And then you come to me

And say to me I can face anything

And no one else can do

What you have done for me

You’ll always be

You will always be the girl in my life

Mama, mama you know I love you

Oh you know I love you

Mama, mama you’re the queen of my heart

Your love is like

Tears from the stars

Mama, I just want you to know

Lovin’ you is like food to my soul

I'm Officially 23 y/o Today

Today is my birthday...

Dah 3 tahun berturut2 sambut bestday masa bulan Ramadan...
Tapi xdapat pulak nak celebrate kt luar...
Almaklumlahhh...jatuh kt weekdays...
tp kn...hr ni ada jamuan raya PPUKM...
kiranya smbut bestday aku jgk aku tue.... haha [perasan jp]

Tp esok azila ajak kluar...
She promise to treat me at Shabu Shabu Train...
Wahh, dh lama x makan kt sn...
Hr tue diaorg kuar aku ada postmortem O&G...
sedih xdpt ikut...tp xlm pun...huhu

Hurm...dh 23 thn rupanya aku menikmati hidup kurniaan Ilahi ini...
Apa pengorbanan yg telah aku buat ek???
Apa pula sumbangan ku???
Pikir punya pikir...
Tilik punya tilik....
Rupanya, masih banyak yg perlu aku lakukan...

Dh 23 tahun...dh layak kawin kn?
haha...gatal ke aku?
xde la...cuma fitrah manusia utk hidup berpasangan...
melengkapkn lg sebahagian agama...
termasuklah aku...
tp, tahun ini semestinya belum smpai masanya....
pengajiaanku belum tamat...
dh tentu2 Ummi ku xbagi....
apepun, aku berdoa agar perjalanan hidupku senantiasa dipermudahkan...
dikelilingan insan2 yg berkongsi rasa gembira & sedih....
dan senantiasa mendapat rahmat & kasih sayang Allah S.W.T...
Amiin.....

Raya with UKM MS

Last kenangan nk beraya dengan kengkawan yg beshhh....

Nsib baik ada insan yg mulia nk bg aku tumpangkn keretanya...

Thanks zoiiiii...

Jom ikut beraya skali....

18 September 2010 (9 Syawal)

Rumah Fadhli [YDP Persiap 09/10]

Menu: Mee goreng...ketupat & rendang of course la ada...dh nama pun raya...

dan tentunya kuih2 yg sedap...hbis berbalang2 dimakan oleh kami...

Rumah Prof Dato' Lokman [Dekan & Pengarah PPUKM]

Menu: soto+mee kari+satey+lemang+kambing golek+kek lapis sarawak pun ada =)

Rumah Prof Wan [Pensyarah Tahun Preklinikal]

Prof yang sgt mesra dengan pelajar...album2 gambar semua kami tengok & prof dengan gembira menceritakan pengalaman & suasana negeri orang....Terima kasih prof atas layanan yg sangat mesra itu..

Menu: nasi tomato & kuih muih...

.Rumah Auji [Rakan seperjuangan]

Rumah di atas bukit yg sangat cantik...sesuai sgt klu nk bersantai & berehat2 setelah penat bekerja...tp, menakutkan la nk naik tinggi2...jalan pun kecik jer...wpun pernh berangan nk memiliki rumah atass bukit, rasa mcm xjd jer bila tau cmni....hehe...

Menu: rojak buah+soto+banyak lagi sbnrnya...tp yg jadi pilihanku hanyalah rojak buah & air cocktail...yerla...banyak dh aku sumbat dlm perut sejak pagi...

19 September 2010 (10 Syawal)

Prof Shahrir [Penasihat PERSIAP & Pensyarah & Pakar Rheumatologi]

Menu: nasi minyak+spagetti

Rumah Aina [YDP AMSA 09/10]

Menu: mee jawa+satey kajang

Akhirkata....Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri buat semua...
Sayang korang semua...
Terima kasih untuk semua kenangan terindah ini...

Semua gambar adalah dari koleksi gambar Hafiza Ahmad & yg last pic tue dr Mohd Afiq

Eid Mubarak 2010...

Okey...habis sudah beraya dengan keluarga...

Kini kat rumah keduaku...

Kolej Tun Dr Ismail...

Wahhh...bosannya...keseorangan dibilik semalam...

Kesunyiaan terasa menyebabkan kerinduanku pada keluarga...

Uwaaa....nape aku xtau awal2 hari ni cuti lagi...

Klu x, dapat raya lg sket...

Tp xpela....

Dh ada kt cni pun...

Nangis2 pun xde guna...

 Baik kamu study Liyana...

Esokkan exam O&G...

Belajarlh klu nak lulus...

Chaiyok!!!

Yea2...Esok Hari Raya

Tersenyum ku mendengarnya...

Melihat wajah2 ceria adik2 ku...

Gembira & bersyukur ku rasakan...

Kerana aku masih di sisi keluarga tercinta,

menyambut Syawal yang mulia ini...

Dahulu...aku juga sebegitu...

Tapi tak bermaksud aku tidak mengalukan Syawal ini...

Cuma, masa telah mendewasakan aku...

Pengertian Syawal juga sudah berubah...

Jikalau dulu...

Raya mesti ingat nak main bunga api

Jalan2 kumpul duit raya...

Kini, bunga api tidak menjadi rebutan lagi...

Jalan2 untuk mengeratkan silaturrahim...

Terutama dengan kaum keluarga yang jarang2 ditermui...

Serta sahabat2 yang telah jauh di mata kerana menuntut ilmu didada...

Lasty...raya jommmm...

Lizard in Chilie Sauce!!!

Even I've heard news about that,

it never been so shocking and scary to me....

But last night....Ouuuuuhhhh, I can't imagine it....

Yukssss.....it made me nauseated....

and...

There goes my burger to Mr. Bin...

Bukan nak membazir tapi...

memang menggelikan...

Even nak pegang botol sos tue pun rasa geli.....

Trauma2....takkan makan sos tue lagi...

Tukar jenama....huhu

Memikirkan cicak tue memang ada dalam sos cili tue,

ke dia baru masuk lepas kitaorang beli...

Tapi, tak pernah pulak sos tue terdedah....

Arghhh, gelilah....

Dah habis separuh makan sos tue selama ni....

Nak nangis je rasa....

T_T

Harap sangat benda2 macam ni tak terjadi lagi...

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Last LAT

Liga Antara Tahun 2010 (LAT) would be the last LAT for me and my friends. And we just had a great match with 2nd year volleyball team this evening. I could say that it was our best match forever. I really enjoyed the match. I wonder when we could play the volleyball together next time. Everyone is so busy with their study and definitely we will be separated when working later. I surely will be missing the time we spend together. Ilani, Zaiha, Zue, Seha, Adilah and Zatil, thanks for all the memories you had given me. Loves you all.

Tiring....

All peace may be upon you and me too...

I'm really really tired...These 2 weeks of O&G really burn out my energy but still my body weight increase...haishhh...That's not a good news to me...huhu. But, this 2 weeks really makes me tired. Luckily O&G don't required me to follow the evening rounds and being in Green team that have 2 grand ward rounds per week is good for my heart...hehe...These first 2 weeks I could say as weeks to recall and prepare me for my survival in this posting...

Within these 2 weeks, I had learned so much. Workshop is what I loved the most during these 2 weeks but that does not means I hate tutorial. I just loves hands on and practical thing. Because, I'm already tired mentally, my parasympathetic always take over my body when I sit...That's why I do not like tutorial. And if I'm tired physically too, even when I'm standing I can't concentrate and have my mind somehow detached from my body...That's really bad. I'm so jealous with those who can stay alert & conscious with GCS 15/15 even when they already stay up overnight. I think I should exercise to have that. But....uh, how do I do that everyday with all those tiring day in ward. :( Nevertheless, life must go on and job as a final year student required me to be more patience and have more passion and determination to go on. Hopefully that would not burn out.

Even though, it's tiring...I still satisfied with my performance. I have conducted 3 deliveries and assisting 2 LSCS. I do not like operation theater so much but this time with a role as assistant, I'm kinda loving it. It's much much better than being a watch-girl...hehe. I want and need to observe and assist more common surgical procedures in O&G. Right now, I need to polish and top-up my knowledge related to this posting and being posted to Slim River Hospital again would give me time to study as there is no internet connection and this time, no more dramas to be watch. Hopefully, I can get more chances to perform the delivery there. Hopefully, my friends and I will have a safe journey tomorrow.

See you again in two weeks time... :)

Post Family Planning Tutorial & Clinic

Alhamdulillah and thanks Allah for that I'm still alive till today...

Despite a pack schedule for this week, I still survive and trying to enjoy

and grab as many knowledge and experience for this O&G posting.

Yesterday, I have tutorial session with Prof Harlina about family planning and

today I joined the family planning clinic with Dr Che Hasnura.

During the clinic,
I had chances to see how to insert & remove the IUCD & implanon.

Besides, I also have chance to see a pap smear done
and I do think that I can perform it later.

Family planning is part and parcel of O&G posting.

I enjoyed it because it just not knowledge that I can apply in my work life,

but it also something that I can apply to myself.

Some might wonder what's the importance of it?

and some might say, we shouldn't planned as child is Allah gift, 

and therefore, there more the better.

However, we must consider other part of life...

The patient life and the child's life later on...

Patient with multiple medical illness or had previous LSCS,

might want to consider to plan their family to have good spacing 

for their health benefit.

Family with poor family income might also need to spacing 

to have their children raise up well or have the attention to the child well.

There are others benefit of family planning that I learn.

When we talk about family planning,

we must know the various type of contraception that can be used,

their action, benefits, side effect and contraindication to used. 

And I already have the idea what to use if i need...huhu

Okey la, enough for this time. 

Nothing to think about my own family planning. 

It's far away and now the most important the patient....

Let's study hard for the sake of the valuable women's health...

Bubbaiiii Kidsss, Welcome Momssss

Assalamu'alaikum....

Alhamdulillah...Today, I've finish my 1st final year posting, a 7 weeks paediatric posting. This year paediatric posting is much much better than last year. I can fall in love with paediatric now. Children are cute and so adorable but when they started to cry...Owh, please...It makes me wanna cry to, not because of seeing them crying but because it makes me difficult to pick up the abnormal finding during the examination...hehe...Now, I'm quite confidence on my auscultation even though I need more time to pick up the abnormal sound among the transmitted sound they made even though I need spend sometime to auscultate it. Overall performance is just okey. I'm not to active examining patient this year. So bad attitude of me...I should be improve for next posting.

For paeds posting, I have had a chance to attach at Hospital Slim River for two weeks. 2 weeks there really makes me in love with paeds. At there, I was given so much opportunity to hands on several procedure by myself...and of course with the supervision. I even become more confidence with my own self to handle and care the newborn. I now had the courage to do the prick the newborn to take blood. Even though I felt sorry and sad, I know I do that to see them better. I'm very thankful to all the staffs and doctors there. They really teach me a lot. Not to forget, my group mates...they also help me to survive in this posting...Really glad to have such helpful and cheerful friends.

The posting ended but my study group notes haven't finish yet. Really need to catch up faster before entering th new posting and meet the moms and ladies. Hope we could start the study group on O&G earlier and there's nothing much that could separate us apart that stopping us to do the study group. 

Oh, okey...before I forget. I wanna send millions of thanks to Sarah. Because of her, I could eat well at the Slim River. She even drive me from and to PPUKM. Sorry if I cause trouble to you while I being your roomate. Hope you didn't keep it in your heart. :-)

So, this is HSR...quite beautiful and calm, right?

Tagged by Epa =)

Epa, so sorry lambat balas tag nie...Dah terbaca, tapi tak tau Liyana tue Epa maksudkan saya...hehe

1.Adakah anda happy sekarang?

Yup, happy...tp biasa la...hidup xsentiasa gembira...ada jgk kesedihan, kesusahan yg mewarnai kehidupan ini...

2.Kenapa anda Happy?

Krn keluarga n kwn2 yg sentiasa ada di samping sy...tambah2 dh bergelar pelajar thn akhir...gembira sgt tp tkut jgk nk menghadapinya ><

3.Apakah benda yang boleh membuatkan anda happy?

Benda2 yg x membebankn otak n perasaan cam shopping, bc novel, main game n makannnnn...

4.Pernahkah anda menerima tag?

Klu kt blog, ini la yg 1st...itu la yg xsangka sy Liyana yg Epa maksudkn...hehe

5.Nyatakan warna yang anda suka.

Pink, biru, hijau, putih....Basically, sume warna2 yg lembut, xstriking...

6.Beritahu 9 orang yang anda mahu tag.

Alamak, ramainye...nak tag sape nie :-/

1. Wana

2. Key

3. Kak Lynn

4. Kak Qilah

5. Latif

Lg 4 masih kosong...

Sape2 yg nk mengtagkan diri, sila2 la jgn segan...hehe

7.Tuliskan sesuatu tentang orang yang anda tag.Tulis panjang bejela pon takpa.

Semuanya sy kenal ms kt Qber...K.Qilah senior, yg lain sm batch dgn sy...

8.Adakah anda happy dengan apa yang ada?

Alhamdulillah...sy happy dgn apa yg tlh dikurniakn...sentiasa cuba ingatkn dri yg orang lain lagi kekurangan dr apa yg tlh sy ada...suburkn rs syukur dlm hati kita yer kwn2 =)

Ok Epa...dh selesai jwb...hehe

Diet???

Salam'alaik to you all...

I wanna talk about diet today. Don't blame me or feel uneasy with these title. Diet here is not about wanting to be slim and loose weight. It's about balance and nutritious intake. I'm realize that I've not been taking care of my diet lately. Okey, okey...not just lately but it's been about 2-3 years already. 

My desire towards fast food had been increasing...Burger, Pizza, Fried chicken...It's been a choice especially when I went out. Don't know since when did I been in love with the fast food. However, might be when I'm felt I'm grown up and start my university life because my parents never teach us on taking fast food. Even having meal at restaurant or mamak stall I could say rare in my family. My father loves his wife cooking the best because he sure of the content and the freshness of the ingredient used. He so allergic towards MSG. That's why  he prefer homemade cooking. 

Talking about my mom....yeah, she is absolutely someone that really concern about our food and health. Whenever she read about something good about a vegetables or fruits, she will try to cook and make juice for us. Don't get wrong. She didn't take it blindly. She read or hear the health session on the newspaper, tv or on the net. She made the best for her family. I loves all her cooking except when she cooked 'ikan patin'. Because I don't like 'patin' or 'keli'...hehe. For her sons and daughters, she always want to make sure that they have breakfast before going to school. Even I'm at university now, she always remind me not to forget my breakfast...but I sometimes didn't have times for that because I'm late. Another thing that she always remind me and my siblings about diet is to take dates (kurma) and kismis everyday. That habit I have been left since 3rd year even my mom always ask me to bring with me dates and kismis every time I wanna comes to hostel.

Don't felt I'm talking nonsense. That's about the diet that I want back in my life...but not the fast food laa...  Dates and kurma have been known to have many benefits. That's why I want to make it as my daily food again. I don't wanna left my breakfast...if I could. It's not an easy thing for me to be discipline. However, I would try for my own health and life. I wanna live life in healthy body, mind and spirit. 

Let's work towards it, Liyana!!!

Cuti Sekolah - Kenduri Kawen

Helloooo...

Hehee...don't get confused...

It's not about me, ok...

Sampai-sampai je aku kat rumah hari tue, nampak la hadiah-hadiah banyak terkumpul kat atas meja kopi kat ruang tamu tue...

Pelik jugak kenapa banyak sangat hadiah...

Bila tanya kat adik aku, dia pun jawab la..

"Dah banyak sangat orang kawen"

Haha, sekali dengar cam lawak pulak jawapan dia...

Tapi memang betul pun...

Tengok je kat meja makan kat ruang tengah tue...

Bertimbun kad-kad pelbagai warna dan corak...

Sampai 2/3 jemputan sehari pun ada...

Biasa la, bila cuti sekolah je...

banyak la jemputan-jemputan ke majlis perkahwinan...

Hari ni sepupu ayah yang kawen...

Semalam jiran taman depan rumahku...

Nak dijadikan cerita...

Tak berasaplah dapur rumahku sebab makan kenduri je 2 hari ni...

Tak dapat la nak makan air tangan Ummi ku balik kali nie...

Huhuu...sedih gak ar...

Bercakap pasal kenduri kawen...

Aku sangat rindu zaman kenduri kawen yang dulu...

Gotong-royong sama sanak saudara & jiran tetangga untuk masak gulai dan segalanya...

Zaman sekarang, orang lebih suka guna katering...

Mudah, tak penat...

Tapi....

Hurmm, tak tau la apa perkataan yang sesuai untuk digambarkan...

Yang pasti, aku amat suka majlis kawen dulu...

Hari sebelum dan malam majlis kawen sangat meriah dengan sanak saudara yang datang gotong-royong...

Terutamanya keluarga yang ada anak kecik yang ramai...

Memang meriah habis la...

Dulu, time makcik-makcik ku kawen,

aku suke sangat hias hantaran coklat tue....

Tau-tau la kan, nanti mesti dapat sikit kat orang yang buat tue...

Lagi satu kerja kitaorang budak-budak ni...

Masukkan telur dalam bekas telur, pastu masuk bakul...

Bila majlis kawen, mula la menyemak bila kek dah dipotong...

Kerja cuci pinggan tue, jadi kerja budak laki...

Kitaorang jaga adik yang kecik-kecik.

Dulu dan sekarang...

Banyak bezanya...

Banyak dah berubah...

Mungkin perubahan itu satu kebaikan...

Memberi rezeki pada yang membuat katering...

Mungkin juga satu kerugian...

Pada ahli keluarga yang kekadang hanya datang tengok pengantin, makan dan balik...

Dah la jarang-jarang dapat bertemu dan berkumpul beramai-ramai...

Mungkin ada yang berkata, takkan la nak berlama pulak kat satu-satu majlis,

nanti menyesakkan pulak...

Tapi, saya lebih merujuk pada berkumpulnya saudara-mara sejak sebelum majlis kawen itu..

Sama-sama bergotong-royong menyiapkan kenduri dan pada harinya bersama-sama melayan tetamu, menambah makanan yang terkurang dalam bekasnya dan menolong membersihkan pinggan/cawan/periuk yang digunakan...

Nampak seperti memenatkan bukan?

Yea, memang memenatkan jika tidak ramai yang membantu...

Lagipun, kepenatan itu tidak terasa jika kegembiraan dikongsi bersama dan bantuan dihulurkan dengan ikhlas untuk membantu menjayakan dan melancarkan majlis...

Aku punya majlis???

Masih jauh untuk aku bercakap tentangnya...

Mungkin juga mengikut arus perubahan, mungkin tidak...

Masa dan keputusan keluargaku yang menentukan segalanya...

Baiklah, sampai kat sini saja untuk kali ini...

Nak pergi solat jemaah dengan family...

Jumpa lagi...

A Reward to Self

You all might have know on what purpose I'm rewarding myself, right?

Yup, it's after finishing our research presentation...

All those SPSS things had made me little tense...

However, luckily Ihsan and Shao Nan contribute a lot on that matter..

or else, my tension headache would come again...

Let's join me and Aina rewarding ourselves...
First, we had dinner to rebel the undercooked rice during lunch..

A plate of spagetti chicken bolognese and an ice lemon tea for me.

While waiting for our show time, we went to shopping around there...
Not much shopping actually...
More to window shopping...
I had my eyelashed thickened by Aina at the Watson...
First time had that on...
It was weird and I felt my lid heavier and had foreign sensation on my eye..
So, I never gonna waste my money on that...
Furthemore, I had no time to wear it...and no purpose to wear it...

9.45 pm
Our passes...

The story begin...

11.30...
Smile...Happy...
Really enjoyed the story...
Puss in boot is sooooooo cute...

See, see...how cute he is? :)

Lastly, I wanna send this special thank you to...
Aina Mardiah who is spending time with me and drive us there...
Thanks a lot Aina.

Finally, A History Created

Yesterday was a history. A really great history for a starting of the final year...

I bet, most of my friends also felt the same...

Not forget to mention all the lecturers, doctors and professors.

Do you wanna know why?

Research meeting? Is it really a great? 

To me, definitely yes because it's our research meeting...

I know most of you felt that research meeting or presentation is a boring event...

I'm also felt the same at first...and I ashame to admit that I hate research at first...

However, after seeing, hearing, learning the result of our hardworking and commitment on the research,

I could say that we proudly say that we love it...

And we gonna miss all those moments we spent together to finish the research...

Even though it is tiring to stand for about 4 hours just to hear the poster presentation,

I didn't mind at all... 

I wanna know the research especially the result and conclusion...

I wanna know the importance of it? How does it affect the future management?

And sometimes, it just open a new view or perspective.

This is the reseach poster from my group.

Even though the poster end up as a black background, I'm still proud with it.

It's the proved of our hardworking and teamwork.

Million and thousand thanks to my group members and also our supervisors, who made it possible.

I would definitely attend the research presentation in the future...

So much I can learn from it...

Last but not least,

congratulation to all the winners of the oral and poster presentation...

Be proud our your hard work and not to forget your gratitude to the Almighty Allah SWT.

Hope you all can make us proud in Brunei later...

Make them acknowledge you with your good research,

not just a student nor a participant...

Enough for this time...See you all next time...

Blog Makeover

Yeah....

finally...I manage to makeover my blog a little bit

after a marathon of dermatology lecture I had yesterday.

It just to prevent me from falling asleep during the sunset time.

I had this thought of creating my own template

for quite a long time but didn't manage to start it.

For this time, I just manage to makeover/decorate my blog.

I tried to create my own background,

however I gave up after failing a few trial to saving.

I edit it online. But somehow, I couldn't manage to save it online.

So, frustrated.

I think of creating it using photoshop

but I didn't have much idea on how should it look like.

I love some nature with few buildings.

I don't want it to be real picture.

But then, I'm not a good sketcher/artist to draw the imaginary world.

Naaah...Nevermind...I'm satisfied with my current template....

Later, I will add on more widget at the sidebar.

Until then, just wait k.

Owh...My Plan

I'm sad...Just now, I called my mother just to ask her whether I have my white 'baju kurung' left at home... However, before I come to ask her...she suddenly tell me that my father asked me to be engaged only after I finish my study and work for a year before married. It's so sad to hear that...I thought my mother had agreed to let me engage at end of this year and I want to persue her to allow me marry after I had finished my study. Now, it turns out this way :( I should face my mother and father to discuss on this matter. I definitely need to go back to Terengganu after the SSM presentation. Now, I'm thinking what and how should I persue them?? ><

Suddenly, Remember Last Wednesday

Last Wednesday I was at my mom hometown, Muar....That day, my mom droves us to the playground at Tanjung Emas, Muar....It's all because those kids really wanna go there and play. Actually, I rather choose to sit in front of this laptop and read the e-novel...however, thinking of the 10 kids my mom need to look after, I quickly change my clothes and put on the shoe. It's just almost near 4 o'clock and the sun still shines proudly in the sky. Luckily the winds comes along...or else, I surely sweat a lot. Acknowledging few damages to the swing and slide, I need to look after them more carefully. Especially the youngest, Ahmad Faruqi who is just one year old...still walking like a bear and always fall and her sister Mumtaz, who is just 2 years old. My youngest sister, 'Alyaa, 6 years old, really enjoy to play with their cousins. She really loves small kids. They play around, climb the stairs to go down the slide and had themselves hanging over the monkey bars. After about an hour, one of them complaining of stomachache and my mom decide to go home. Before we went home, all of us had an ice-cream melting and cooling our throat. They really enjoy the play even though they had gone to the playground nearby our village that morning. I thought that would be the best moment my sister had before she went back to Terengganu the next morning. Let's enjoy few pictures of the happy faces of the people with no worrries... ^_^

My Cousins...

Arghhhh...kids, kids, kids... they are everywhere...they make noise. I can't study in this situation...
Hear, they sing the national song 'Negaraku'. Just now, they sing...apa ntah.
Haishhh, kids nowdays...too advance and so much exposure to the entertainment industry. Mak aihhh, what had happen and infected these kids, now they swear the oath of the nation - ' Rukun Negara'. So patriotic today...huhu.
This morning they read the story book out loud. Disturbing??
May be...Aiyakk, how my mother can stand to look after those kids...they are naughty and energetic. Luckily my mom come back here to help my grandmother.
Early in the morning, they made act. First, want tea, then milo, then milk....Aishh, so tiring to cope with their demand.
Lunch in front of the television, have tea at the living room, eat junkfood and sweets all around the house...then the house when messy again, need to throw out my voice and yell at them..'
Throw the rubbish in dustbin, put your drinks and glass in the sink and wash them, don't spill the water on the floor, and bla bla bla...

Can't imagine I have many kids. Surely my voice tired and my throat sore due to yelling and mumbling all the time. And I'll be the strict mother...haha.
Now, the prepare to go to playground at Tanjung. I better be prepare also...I'll write again tonight sharing more stories about the little kids. Till then, bubbai...

Pasar

It's been a long time since my last step to the market a.k.a pasar basah...and yesterday I take a step to the market together with my ummi and grandmother. It's not to noisy but it smelly...very fishy...hehe. Even though I loves to eat fish a lot, I don't like it smell. Wonder when someday, I need to go, buy and clean it, can I stand it for long??? Back to the topic, actually I went to the Muar market, it just below the Astaka. One thing that the sellers impressed me is that, they read newspaper when have free time. Thinking about myself which is very seldom to read newspapers|><|. Then like always, some will chat with other and some take care of their selling counter clean. At Terengganu, my ummi always when to Astaka to buy vegetables, Sabasun to buy chicken and Giant to buy fruits. She bought fishes, prawns or squids from the fishmonger that always drives van from housing area to another. She's very careful and choosy about the food for her family...this vegetable is not good as it make your body cold, can't eat prawns or squid frequently because it contains more cholesterol, can't use preservative such as ajinomoto, or those pati2 ayam. I wonder if I'm left alone to cook, surely those ready made spices will be my choice...hehe... Okey, enough about that. Time to have my porridge again...huhuhu...

New Image ^_~

Hey girls, I got my hair short...again...hehe... Really can't stand the heat nowdays... I'll grow it back someday... When? Hurmmm, don't know... May be when it times to get married...haha... Owh, I missed that wavy long hair already... I never had it long like that before... Kind of sad to get it cut but the weather and times now, don't give me much chance to care it...Therefore, better have it cut then to see it gone damage... I had a thought to go to hair saloon, but it seems to waste a lot of money... and a student like me shouldn't waste it... Hurmm, hope with this new haircut, I will tolerate the heat better and less headache (mcm la ada kaitan headache dgn long hair) haha...

Just Another Day

Yup...just another day for exam...
i only got 29 hours left before i enter the exam hall...
that also include the times for sleep, bath, eat, mumbling and of course facebooking...
so, at last...i only got about 5 hours to study, is it?
could i do better?
or should i say, i certainly should make it better because....
there's so much you didn't read...
and i must finish reading it before i make the steps to the exam hall...
i should read and read and read and get away from this lovely lappy...
what should i do? should i just read those books?
but, i can't remember easil just by reading it...
i must make notes...
but then, i would take times to do so...
i'm a bit particular about the notes...
my handwriting must be good and it shouldn't be any mistake i make or else,
i might rewrite it..
ohhhh, how stressing is it?!
i'm so afraid i didn't manage to cover all those topics...

Exam is Approaching

it's really hot these days...

i'm sweats a lot and need to change the shirt frequently...it's quite troublesome because the more frequent i change the shirt, the more clothes i need to wash...but, if i didn't change, i will feel uncomfortable...then, i might can't study well...aiseyyy, what a lazy girl i'm when it comes to wash clothes...haha, don't get me wrong. i don't like it because of my habit after washing the clothes...which, i need to iron them first before i fold or hang them in the cupboard...and, of course it took me a lot of time to do that. my housemate always once sounds me that i'm sure need a maid when i'm working...is it??? i don't know, lets wait until i work...huhu...

exam is just 2 days more...i'm quite worried....there are a lots of thing to be covered and i think i'm not well prepared and haven't read much...and i slept a lot also these days...more than 8 hours per days...haishhh, why i sleeps like a baby in time like these...i used to stay up, read and focus for my exam....but, that doesn't happen to me these day. i felt afraid with my current situation and sometimes i hate myself for sleeps a lot. i felt like crying...i'm afraid to face this exam if i stay like that for the next 2 days...hope my housemate, Ely and Fara would encourage me and wake me up from sleep...

help me friends

how childish i'm...i should be more responsible to myself. don't depend on others. even though they wake me up, if i don't have the courage to stay awake, then...whats the point...i should be stronger and have more courage to face the exam....'the best motivation is from inside yourself. only you can keep yourself motivated for longer time. only you can keep the light on'...wake up liyana...remember your ambition and people around you., especially your parents....remember how hard they had raised you up and give you all the freedom to choose and do what you want...you are not live for yourself only...you have responsibilities to other people...so, be a reliable and responsible person liyana!!! only you can change yourself and only you can make your dreams comes true...

wake up girl!!
starts the engine and drive to the end point....